My Star ; Hezzul
Monday, February 4, 2013 | 6:49 AM | 0 comments
Happy birthday to me.
" Sejak aku bertemu dengan kau, hati aku jadi semakin pilu. Tak dapat nak sembunyi lagi- perasaan ini. "
Where are you, Hezzul? I hope you're reading this.
Sometimes, I look at the sky. Are we still looking at the same sky? The sky is filled with stars, tomorrow will be a clear day. That's how I always feel when morning comes. We used to look at the same place, do the same things. Those dream-like days have passed by. It's already been a long time since we've had different dreams. Was it that hard to say a short goodbye?
What was the rush? Without a word, you said goodbye. If you're gonna be a star, shine even brighter. If you're already a star, shine even longer. It's not a goodbye. If we can see each other with smiles later on, shine so that your light can reach me.
We always felt this burning thirst. As if we were prisoners trapped in different places- going through these vicious cycles; our closed up and nailed down ways. Even if we're broken and ruined, we just need to hold our brush and paint our dreams again. Even if we're swept away and bruised, we just need to hold our brush and paint our dreams again.
I hated you a lot. Were all of our promises that easy to you? It's still unfinished, I didn't draw it yet, it's too complicated. It hurt a lot, you changed- it's over with you. The scars have healed and the world has changed me. You are my counter- you provoke me.
If we didn't trust each other, we would've hated each other. Although I may miss you a little- I'm fine. As much as I was in pain for letting you go- the wind will blow again. I will become a star just like we promised, I'll rise up higher so you can see me.
Just like the day long ago, the day I stand in front of you like fate's joke, I will be the star that I wanted to become for so long and wait.
