19 APRIL 2015

That is the day where is am crowned as the Queen in his heart, one and only boy named Hezzul.

As I woke up this morning, the sunlight was rushing through the room and it lit up every dark corner that there was. There was this feeling of inexplicable joy in my heart and I knew it at that moment that I needed to tell him just how much I like- I love him. Forgive me, for I am not a writer, and may not know the best way and the best words to use. All I do know is that I love him and that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. He have given me so much joy that I am quiet sure that I am the luckiest girl alive on the face of this earth.

Let me start by saying that I thank God every night since I found him. He came into my life when everything seemed so dark but he provided me the light to find my way. I've never been so certain of anything in my life like I am of us. He have totally changed my outlook in life and I thank him for that. U never thought that someone could love me like he do (after I broke up with Fik...), but guess what? I love him that much too. I feel as if I am walking over clouds just thinking about him. I know he have said we could do foolish things while in love, but you know what? With him, I wouldn't mind being a fool for the rest of my life. I love him so much and I know he love me too. I know that others looking into our relationship might think that we're saying too many foolish things too soon but they just don't know how we feel about each other. There's nothing foolish about the things I've told him. I meant every word I said. I love him. I would do anything; I love him so much. Today, I promised him that I would to anything in my power to make him a great person, outstanding lover, and supportive partner.

Our first meeting was sweet but as the time passed by, oh well, you know- we fought a lot seriously. But I think because of that- was the reason why I like him and ended up falling in love with him helplessly. To think that I have to be apart from him even for a day is a torturous thought. My love for him grows with each passing minute and being apart from him causes me much agony. To have him by my side is the biggest gift that life can bestow upon me. Thoughts of him race through my brain all day long and I cannot wait for the hour when he will come online. I wait for him and in that, he know that I love him so much.

My sweet honey, there is not a day that goes by that I don't think about him. I am so happy to have met him. My life completely changed and that's a good thing! I never knew I could be this much in love. He opened my mind and my heart and I would never change that. The first time I talked to him I knew it wasn't just a crush. Even though we fought a lot though! My friend used to tell me that by hating him, I might end up falling in love with him. I think that I fell in love with him first! As time went on and we talked more, I fell more and more in love with him. I am sure that he is the one I am fated to be with! Please look at me and notice me. He already have all of me. I want to be there when he is sad and lonely so that I can make him happy and loved! When he's sick, I want to stay by him side and nurse him back to health with all of my love. I want to walk hand in hand at night gazing at the stars together. I want to be that sweet girl that he will always have by his side through hardships and happy times. He is the only one I ever need in this world. The only one I want to stand beside.

He is the reason behind every joy that has ever been a part of my life. He is the one who made me see the beauty things. He came into my life and turned my world around and changed everything for the better. I can't thank him enough, all I can do to repay him is to love him unconditionally and whole heartedly. He is every dream of mine come true and I love him with all of my heart and soul.

The moment that I first saw him (in Pico), he was standing in the middle of the crowd, laughing and talking to a friend. There was something about him, maybe it was in the way he laugh or the way his eyes lit up, and I knew that there was this undeniable attraction  that I felt for him. I was shy, and nervous, and I hesitated just a little bit when I asked him to add me. We were strangers and, when he said yes, I swear my heart skipped a beat. Ever since that night, I have known that we were destined to be together and not a day goes by when his love does not prove me right. I love him, much more than he could ever imagine, and I just want him to stay mine forever.

There are a thousand ways to say I love you around the world, but the only way to prove it and that is by actions. He have proved that he love me unconditionally time and again. He were the one person who was by my side when all the world was against me. I love him and take care of him as much and as well as I can. I hope he knows that I have the best intention always, so forgive me if I  ever hurt you or caused you pain. I love him for now until forever and will never leave his side.

If one day, we broke up.. I will never give up on him. I will wait again... I will try to search for a second chance for our relationship.. and fix it. Even though it took a long time, I am willing to wait for him. Even if he hates me, I'll still wait for him and try to change his heart again. Now, I have him with me and I know that I never want to let him go.

Deep within my heart are etched memories of him and me. I can see the moment we met like it was just yesterday, every day since that moment that I first saw him, I have only fallen deeper in love with you so much so that now I can't imagine how life would be without his love.

I love you so much, Hezzul Hanif.

Thank you for loving me.